you two make me really fucking upset.

1. i want a significant friendship to you. god fucking damnit. it's just not FAIR that you're really one of the people who means the world to me, and i mean NOTHING to you.

2. basically everything above, but, i know i mean something to you, except, no, i don't know, you sort of act like i do, and i thought i did, but sometimes i honestly don't know. i wish it'd mean the world to you that I was there on your birthday too.

fuck!

i don't know if this is just about winning, or if i honestly just wish things were more mutual.

either way this really fucking sucks.