i am sick(very soar throat, and other coldesquey symptoms. strep? mehbe) and depressed and restless. i think though that i'll rent some movies and stay in tomorrow, unless i get a truly amazing invite. i need to hide from the world, and nurse my throat.

i really, really hate jealousy. rejection would be fine, if i didn't have anyone to be jealous with, to constantly compare myself with. i know i'm not very amazing or pretty at all, but i really wish that he would stop pointing it out. fucking play-favourites-persony-guy.

i don't want to go back to bed. i mean, i do, but i want to sleep, and i can't, so, yeah.