I think I'm having heart palpitations. It's annoying as shit. I'm not starving, I don't have a disease, I'm not even dying. So, I haven't eaten much today. Much. Not I haven't eaten at all within a few months. I shouldn't be having heart problems. I'm used to the amount of stimulants I'm taking. It just shouldn't happen. I don't know.

I think, at this point, in my little daydreams and things, I prefer Tim to Andrew.

wow.

I feel like I'm disappointing people, because I'm being such a bitch and I'm not...you know, producing.

I really, really wish my heart would just beat slower, quieter, less.