i didn't feel like hanging out today because i should be home cleaning and preparing for school, and because i'm too ugly and fat to go out. oh and dirty, i don't feel like showering, i don't know the last time i did.

but i called laura back just in case she was only calling because andrew came back. i told her to call me the moment he did, if he did. and if he did he'd probably contact her. and i'd want to see him, even if i'm gross i guess.

fucking selfish. oh well. and when she didn't even mention him, i gave the "my mom's not home" excuse.

it was random of me to hope for that, too, just, i was thinking about him (as always). actually, i don't know why that thought occured to me, since it'd be pretty chancey that that would be her reason for calling.

whatever.