i think i may be starting to appreciate life more now that one of my loved ones' was almost taken. or we thought it was. whatever. it's been a long morning. i'm trying to feel okay.

by the way, i'm going to be the absinthe faerie for halloween. and i've discovered i can survive on very minimal sleep.

i think i have a growing amphetamines addiction though.

and i impulsively deleted my myspace and a lot of other stuff.

i don't know where i want to be. somewhere i'm not afraid and where everything isn't blurry.