I hate science. I understand him well. I understand wanting to defy gravity and all laws that have been set before us. Maybe, in some way, I hope to do that too.

Already, I can fuck up completely in school without it phasing me, I can charm and win back nearly anyone, I can do substances without getting addicted (though maybe still psychologically, I think and dream of and long for them).

And I will not doubt myself this time. I will not make this complicated.

I am defying science, and that's it.