i'm really hungover from my sleeping pills (2 ambien, 1 xanax), i like that combination, because it actually knocks me out enough for me to get some sleep. but, however, i know i'll hate myself later for not going to school, but there's not much point since i never do work, ahaha, and there's certian faces i could definitely do without seeing, i think i might finally be over andrew, god that was stupid, anyway, uh, i'm not thinking much at the moment, it's sort of great, and sort of not, when you're not feeling anything, nothing's really anything...it's just sort of blah, but maybe in a good way, since you don't have the bad thoughts, but no good ones, either. but it can't really be good, because you can't really feel much of anything, oh suddenly i want a banana, but i think that's all i'd stomach. i really don't want to go to school today but what day do i want to? and something about, i should probably stop skipping, even though i could get excuses from my doctor. i should also probably stop taking sleeping pills on school nights. that probably sounds weird, but yeah, they put me in odd moods when i wake up and i'm more sluggish than normal. i feel cold. my alarm sounded different when it went off this morning. maybe it means change. i forgot what else i was going to say. except that i'm cold and i'd kill to go back to sleep. i could just go back to sleep until third period, but i know i won't get up and go, because, well, for some reason i just usually don't. but, it sounds like the best solution, even though it might be most desirable to get up and do some more work for science, i've still got too many absences. i always think that aviding them will solve my problems. haha fuck this. i think i'm going back to bed.